im beginning to be able to tell whether people are from the city or not. people who are from outside of the city have much sharper accents. coastal and more country accents are different too. and the coastal guys barely wear shoes
and i know i keep mentioning this but watching the friendships between these guys is just really interesting to me. i guess because it’s novel and interesting. i’ve just never seen the kind of closeness im seeing, in frienships between black guys. I don’t know it’s just so different. and these guys have been to the same school together, college, uni, study abroad, their whole lives pretty much shared. and on one hand i guess there’s a sense that maybe they would have discovered more stuff apart but at the same time that kind of bond must be so rewarding. I don’t know their friendship is just really healthy. they respect each other, are always challenging but will genuinely try to help each get better if they need, they’re incredibly honest, tell each other when they’re being dumb, praise when deserving and i don’t know it’s just admirable and i guess i’ve just never seen something this close to perfect. you see it in tv and stuff but it’s usually over done. it’s really nice to see. maybe i’m just well jel because i would have had that if that stuff didn’t happen with my friends. but yeah it’s just really endearing to be around them.
guys people are so interesting. i cannot even fully express how much i love the fact that personalities are a thing. i know that sounds weird to say but i hope you understand. i think maybe this is part of why i don’t invest myself much in tv. i understand that tv shows can give you insight into characters but i’d rather spend time learning about people by being around actual people. not fictional one dimensional representations. there is just so much scope. i just love the fact that things are expressions of things. that sounds weird too but i mean like synaptic activity is the expression of a neuron, the movement of a leg is an expression of a muscle and a bunch of other stuff and that is just cool
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Birthday: 17 Aug
Gender: lol gender isn’t real
Sexuality: im into dudes. I’m a little bicurious though
Time Zone: Whatever melbourne is
What time and date is it there: 00:49, 2/9/14
Average hours of sleep I get each night: lol sleep - prob like 5
The last thing I Googled was: how to make tea soup
My most used phrase(s): nah m8, yeah m8, sure m8, it’s all fine,
First words that comes to mind: lel
What I last said to a family member: “i got a new aussie phone number m8” - to my sister
One place that makes me happy & why: those little spiritual shops with incense and candles and little trinket things they always smell so nice and have soothing music
How many blankets I sleep under: one bruh
Favorite beverage(s): tea, oj, water, rum
The last movie I watched in the cinema: ugggh it seems like so long ago, planet of the apes!
Three things I can’t live without: food, water and musics
Something I plan on learning: Photoshop
A piece of advice for all my followers: dont listen to bad advice from the internet
also ive been tagged in a bunch of those things so im going to do those now
lol somehow I’m going to make this work out I refuse to be upset by this.
they want to do a roadtrip through aus and festivals and stuff and the other group want to do the great barrier reef and all this water stuff but I can’t swim so lol what would i be doing. they have all these plans and deadlines and structures and that’s cool but the kind of fun i have is not structured lol there is so much freedom on a roadtrip just fuck
How can I bail on a flighhht. They don’t refund lol. And you know the first strike against this holiday is that I missed a festival for it. And now these guys are going to goo! I could maybe book a quick flight inbetween to get to sydney for it? OHMYGOD. I could change my flight to sydney, and then drive down to Cairns when they go, and fly back from there! Omfg.
what a petty thing to be upset about lol be grateful I’m going anywhere right but i’m genuinely sad and fuck if i don’t want what is supposed to be one of the landmarks of my life to be marred by the fact that the people who I now actually would like to be long term friends with are going to go have a great time doing things I’d rather do in a way I’d rather do it. I always do this and it’s annoying.
I’m so annoyed I made friends with the wrong people at first and now I’ve booked a holiday with other guys rather than the people I’d rather go with now and they’re gonna go have fun holidays and stuff and im just so upset because I’m only here for 6 months and these guys are here for a year so this would be my only chance to do fun stupid travel stuff with them
Obviously the tag wasn’t serious alec
maybe I just feel guilty because I’m in the middle of writing a paper about addicting substances and I applied for this position to write for a website about how the hunt for dopamine effects people and how debilitating it can be. like lol dopamine junkie here. I forgot to mention but I’ve been trying to get more serious about my writing which is why I applied for that and I wrote this shit little article for the halls paper and I won $50 for my entry which was cool.
also cigarette’s are really interesting because obviously I’ve tried it and it’s like being high for a short period of time. Like it’s such a commonly used/accepted thing and it’s just weird to me to think that people are walkling around feeling like that all the time? And that it’s acceptable to go to work like that! Because people who smoke/are addicted smoke alot and it makes me think that Huxley wasn’t really far off when he wrote about soma in brave new world because cigarette smokers are pretty much there already.
also lol that yesterday we were at the bar and I was mixing drinks disgustingly and the birthday guy was like ‘lol mate your classy ratings just dropped you are actually scum’ like for some reason before that he thought I was some kind of pretentious snob with standards like lol m8 I’ve been drinking water out of wine bottles for the past weekend and I’ve had sex against a wall outside someone’s house- i ate the contents of a teabag like 2 days ago. lol I am a disgusting asshole at the best of times. the furthest thing from class. I have no idea how on earth people when they first meet me get the kind of angelic impression of me they do. I mean, I know how, I look pretty well put together but damn lol. It just amazes me every time. sry 2 disapoint.
I always have these shitty internal conflicts when I do stuff like this because I know it’s not contributing to my becoming the best version of myself that I can but I’m doped up on these shit ‘you’re young! live life! drink coffee in the rain and have sex with strangers and stumble home while the sun struggles to rise’ kind of mantras lol. I’m always like yah! Why not! We’re gonna die anyway right! If it feels right it can’t be wrong! Then I’m like lol I’m stupid, always trying to justify. And it’s like I can’t really hate myself for that because that’s kind of a defensive mechanism of the mind beyond my control, but at the same time it’s like, I should be better still? Maybe I’m just coming down still lol.